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Roger Ebert Tweets Out Of His Ass

March 2nd, 2010

There seems to be a lot of things in this world that get me fired up. When I try and put one word that seems to link all of these seemingly different issues that cause me to rant quicker than c, that word would be ignorance. Being a nerd/geek/gamer, I face a lot of it. The entire community does and it really chaps my behind to put it nicely. I’m happy to report that my children do not seem to face the same sort of discrimination as my generation does and even worse, the generations before mine. However it still exists and it really needs to end, especially when this ignorance and discrimination comes from main stream media sources. If what is said was being said about Blacks, Jews, women, gays, Hispanics, Asians, Muslims (insert any other group that has a tendency to be largely discriminated against), the outcry would be deafening. So why are people like Roger Ebert allowed to continuously perpetuate a very negative stereotype regarding this topic. Case in point, his latest tweet:

You know what, I will be the first to admit that as a group of people, we can be an odd bunch. We like to argue the minutia of pretty much any subject that is the object of our obsessions and compulsions. We like to dress up in funny costumes and attend conventions where we unleash our geekiosity upon an unwitting city. We are a very passionate bunch of people and we will allow our passions to be spilled upon any poor unsuspecting person if given the opportunity. We may not always be the most socially graceful people but we have heart and we care deeply. We are willing to stand behind our beliefs despite rampant criticism from our peers.

But I want you to think about that for one minute. How are we any different from the “jocks” who attend their favourite sporting event dressed in team colours and faces painted, screaming and hollering from the stands? How are we any different than that same group of people spending hours debating over the merits of The White Sox vs. The Yankees? How are we any different than any group of people who attend any event in support of whatever it is that gives them that boost of adrenaline.

Ebert made mention of messy pigs. Have you looked into a frat house or looked in the home of the bachelor jock with their beer cans, pizza and take-out boxes, piles of clothes and miscellaneous debris all over the place? The geeks/nerds I know are way more obsessed with order and cleanliness that any other group of people I know. Maybe their gaming areas are not always the tidiest and I know that my desk always looks like it has exploded but I do not know of too many creative types where their creative space is not a complete hazard.

Apparently we smell too. That is a stereotype that really bothers me because again the group that seems to hate us the most (the jocks) have the exact same issue. Especially when it is down to play-off time and they wear their same lucky jersey for weeks on end without washing because it will ruin the luck. And let us not forget about the gross and disgusting play-off beard-o-luck. I have met some pretty stinky gamers in my time. There is no denying that but I will deny that the image of the lone gamer in his/her mother’s basement is far from the norm. It is a very unfortunate negative stereotype.

And now for screaming at the PC. Are you trying to tell me that is not a common occurrence? Because let me tell you something, it is no different than the testosterone-filled group massed together in the living room or bar, hooting and hollering over every single little thing that happens during their all-worshipful game. Are you trying to tell me that because it is being done in a pack it is more acceptable or are you telling me that because it is coming from the “cool kids” you are willing to overlook this same behavior?

Now let me tell you something about geeks/nerds/gamers. There seems to be a lot of press about violence and us. And the odd occasion that it does happen, it is shameful. But our instances of violence are not nearly as prevalent as one would like to believe. I will admit, we can be huge assholes to each other online. We have been known to troll the internet just waiting for the opportunity to allow our words on the screen to cause someone else to cry. We have been known to rage quit and some are even known to get a sick perverted sense of satisfaction when they know they are the cause of this rage quit.  But I do not think I have ever heard of a group of us destroying a city when our team has lost. I do not think I have ever heard of us ever getting into physical fights with someone in a bar or in our homes while we are drunk and someone says some stupid shit about our team. As a general rule, we are a very non-violent group of people who just like to anonymously run their mouths from time to time. It bothers me that you never hear about the dude who beat up his wife or the kid who went on a shooting rampage after watching a movie, reading a book, looking at a picture, attended or watched a sporting event (many more examples can be put here) but music and gaming seem to be two of life’s awesome things that like to get singled out because of agenda and not because it is the real cause.

I have nothing against jocks. The only reason I am using them here is because that is the group that is stereotypically pitted against the nerds. And this is one stereotype that does have a good basis of fact behind it unlike the stereotypes that people like Roger Ebert like to fart out of their asses and post on Twitter. When the reality is, if it were not for us geeks/nerds/gamers Roger Ebert wouldn’t be able to fart anything onto Twitter again because guess what, we invented the thing! All of these awesome technological things that people use without a second thought (computers, cell phones, social networking, blogs, intertubes, games, technology to create movies which Ebert makes his life from, engines, microchips, television, bridges, buildings, space shuttles, telescopes, sound mixers, etc., etc., etc.,), none of it would be available if it were not for us. Pretty much every job and every single person’s sources of entertainment would not exist if it were not for some geek spending hours dreaming of how to make something work. I think maybe the only exception to this would be painting as it does not require some type of mechanical device to do.

So Mr. Ebert maybe you want to think about that next time you decide to spew ignorance on the internet. We made it possible for you to still have a voice. You should be thanking us for all that we have given you because without us, you would have no way to hand out your venom.

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As The Curtain Draws To A Close

December 18th, 2009

I have said before sometimes thank you is not enough. But I am going to try my best to express the flood of thoughts that is going through me at the moment as I prepare for my final Geeky Pleasures radio show tonight.

I was going to do on air thank you however I have been prone to spontaneous eye leakage all day today and I am afraid it will happen tonight while people not only listen, but worse, they watch.

Thank you to everyone who has supported me for the past year and half while I did my thing at Party 934 | 102.5 FM Hudson Valley NY.

Thank you to everyone who not only allowed me to entertain myself but allowed me to entertain you in the process.

Thank you to everyone who has embraced (as one listener put it) my unique brand of geekiness.

Thank you to everyone who laughed at me while I laughed at myself.

Thank you to everyone who supported and allowed me to feel normal at least one day of the week, as normal as a geek/nerd can feel. This is a big one. My radio shows allowed me to have a few hours a week where I could pretend I was doing something productive and meaningful, and I was not living with Lupus (except for the one time I almost fainted during my show). From the bottom of my heart, you will have no idea how much this means to me.

Thank you to all the people behind the scenes who have laughed with me and cried with me while I went through the roller coaster that is my life. Thank you especially to those who just listened. Those that didn’t try to fix it. Those that didn’t try to compare battle wounds. But those who really just listened and allowed me to feel what I was feeling and let it pass when I was ready to let it pass and not when they wanted it to pass. If it were not for your support, I don’t think I would have been able to maintain my normal level of insanity. It would have spiraled into something not as fun.

I hope that sometime (sooner rather than later) I can find a way to make Geeky Pleasures live again in some audio format where we can all come together and geek out in real time with the world. Being able to geek out with people from all over the world in one place and allow the world to listen in is a truly unique and special thing. You are what made it happen. Without your input, without your contributions, without your own unique brand of geekiness it just would not have been as awesome as it was.

Thank you.

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So Long, Farwell

December 17th, 2009

Apparently I need to blog about this again as some people seem to have missed the memo. And you know, I think that angers me just a little bit.  Consider this my two week notice to the internet.

Two month ago and without warning due to a lack of funding, I lost a contract that made it possible for me to be online, made this blog possible, made my Geeky Pleasures website possible and made my Geeky Pleasures radio show possible. I am an independent contractor and every single dollar I earn is the difference between keeping a roof over my family’s head and food on the table, and being homeless. The contract was not a huge amount by most people’s standards but it is a devastating amount to my family and me. It is what paid for me to do everything else that you see me do. Because even at the radio station, I am an independent contractor and I did that as a labour of love and not because it made me money. The joys of helping start up a new business venture is that you do not always get paid for the work you do even if it is a legit media outlet.

I would have been offline two month ago if I had not borrowed money (which I still feel sick over as I have never been in debt until now) 1 small design project and a donation that helped pay my bills for this month. And let me tell you, I have hated every moment I have put into all of this ever since. I use to do all of this only for my own amusement. Then people told me that I can’t go offline and they love what I do and it can’t go away etc., etc., etc. Well harm fuzzies does not feed my kids, pay my bills, put a roof over our heads or presents under the Christmas tree. My children do not get to have that part of Christmas this year. If it were not for living in wonderful socialist Canada and the help of a couple of friends and food banks, I would have no food in my cupboards at the moment. If it were not for the fact that I qualify for disability and Canada at least has some decent socialist safety nets, I would be homeless come January 1. I think it would be fair to say that I am resentful at the moment. Not so much at the support and kind words, but at the fact as a result I have become an unpaid, debt laden, dancing monkey.

I even gave people options as to how they could help out if they felt so inclined, if they indeed did really care, and I got nothing but more warm fuzzy words that at the end of the day don’t fix the situation even if they are appreciated.

This past weekend I was able to escape for a few days thanks to a really close friend who decided I needed a change of scenery and I needed to be surrounded by people who really care. He kidnapped me for the weekend and thanks to a visit with another friend, I was able to gain a better perspective on the situation. I told her of something I was doing for someone and she asked, “Are they paying you?” “No”, I replied. Then we got to talking about how people expect me to do all this stuff for them for absolutely nothing. And since we do not live in Gene Roddenberry’s future, I am the one that is getting seriously buggered as a result. Honestly, would you do what I am doing for nothing? Somehow I really doubt it yet you all expect me to do it for nothing and then when I say it is going away, you feel you are entitled to get upset over it. Well you aren’t willing to pay for it so I am no longer willing to provide a service for nothing.

My Geeky Pleasures website hosting is paid up for a couple more month. There is a possibility that I can use my landlord’s internet connection to at least maintain that from time to time. But as for the rest of it, it just is not going to happen as I will have no phone, internet or cable come Jan 1. I am not going to put 40+ hours of my week into what I do with no return except for warm fuzzy feelings from the masses and have my family continue to go without as a result. Maybe sometime in the future the rest of it will be revived but until someone is willing to pay for it to happen, my answer will continue to be “it ends here.” I refuse to be a dancing monkey any longer and have people take advantage of the services I provide.

Happy holidays and have a good 2010.

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Ignore My Ramblings

November 7th, 2009

Ugh. If I am telling you to ignore my ramblings then why am I posting this? Because I just need to vent and get shit out from time to time.

Last night at the end of one of my shows I almost fainted. What makes this worse is people were watching and it scared the shit out of them. I try my best to hide the daily fight I go through with my Lupus. And then stupid shit like almost fainting happens in front of people and I want to crawl into a hole. It is really difficult for me to be vulnerable and nothing is more vulnerable than people witnessing the elephant in the room trampling over you.

I feel like a tool.

My blood pressure likes to do fucked up things to my body often. Normally this passes quickly. Not this time. It has been almost 24 hours since this latest episode and I still feel weak and disorientated. I slept for close to 12 hours thinking maybe I am just overly fatigued because I have not been taking good care of myself lately and not getting at least the 9 hours of sleep that is necessary for me to stay healthy (as far as one can be healthy when they have Lupus). No dice, I still feel like crap and can barely function.

I feel like a tool.

I am such a stupid sucky baby too at the moment. I HATE this and I hate myself for not being stronger. I like to pretend that I do not need anybody. And then episodes like this happen and I long for nothing more than to have someone to cuddle with, to hold me, to stroke my hair and help out with the kids while I either sleep or just rest. It is when I am having an acute Lupus setback that I miss being in a relationship the most. It is rare that I think about relationships because more often than not I feel smothered in them. Today, I long to be smothered and babied and pampered and made to feel as if I mattered.

I feel weak and stupid and I suck. I am crying over nothing. It isn’t even taking a drop of a hat, just taking a breath and I am crying. Yes, I know I shouldn’t be so hard on myself but that is so much easier said than done. I can admit to my failings without any angst except when it comes to the psychological crap and torture I put myself through when Lupus decides it is going to attack me furiously and without warning. It is difficult to admit that I get really really scared and feel so alone. This leads to distancing myself from others and feeling even more alone. But if I show my fear and how alone I feel then others get scared as well. I do not want others to be afraid. It is not fair to them that they have to put up with this shit. Or worse, people feel sorry for me and pity me. I hate that, really HATE that.

I hope this passes quickly so I can go back to pretending I am a rock.

I am such a tool.

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Would You Like A Side Of Entitlement With That?

September 29th, 2009

There are some things I will never ever understand and or get use to. And I hope I never do get use to them. Days like my last 5 days, I wonder why on earth I bother doing what I do. Everyone wants a little piece of whatever and when I give them what I can, it is not good enough and they complain. There has been many instances the past few days concerning many different things, but there is one major one that has me the most pissed.

And to make it even worse, they do it behind my back and act like bloody trolls. I spend 10+ hours out of my FREE TIME to make available things I do not have to. This is my time and I choose to give it to others. I am even nice enough to take the time to explain this. To tell them you know, if you don’t want to hear a conversation or put up with some blips, maybe you will not want to listen. You would think they would be thankful that it was made available because I could say “You don’t tune in, you don’t get to listen. Suck it up and next time… Well maybe there won’t be a next time you ungrateful gits!”

To make it worse, I have to hear about it through other channels. They don’t even have the balls to say a damn thing to my face. They just complain that they should be getting more. And then when someone offers to clean it up a bit, that isn’t even good enough because again, they want more and fuck that the more they want breaks a million and one copyright laws. No, that doesn’t matter.

I am not your fucking dancing monkey. Others are not your fucking dancing monkeys. You are not entitled to a damn thing from me or anyone else. I do this out of generosity. Just because it can be made available doesn’t mean I have to. I even give permission to share it, which I do not have to because I own the damn copyright! Shut your damn pie hole or at least have the balls to say it to my face instead of behind my back in a forum that I cannot even reply to so that I can tell you to your face to shut your damn pie hole! At least here, it is open and I will not censor my comments or the comments of others who choose to reply, good or bad.

/rant

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Inspired FINALLY!

July 18th, 2009
I have been lacking inspiration lately to create. It has been something that has been preoccupying my thoughts to no end. There was a time in my life where everything inspired me to create something. Whether it was written, on canvas, some silly little video, a piece of choreography, something to sew, something to craft, I always found the time and had inspiration to do these things. When I feel creative I feel productive. I have feeling as if my creative well had run dry. It has been very depressing as it is so much a part of who I feel I am. It is also a great reliever of stress and very important for my me time. Tonight my inspirational dry zone finally saw some much needed rain. The thirst to feel creative, never mind to create, has been quenched. I owe part of this down pour of creative thought in part to @CaptainTapole.

It all started off with the following banter back on twitter.
CT: My iPod is loving Depeche Mode and Rod Stewart this evening. I know, odd mixture.

Me: *sings* Put it on and don’t say a word. Put it on cause you think I’m sexy and you want my body come on sugar let me know.
CT: I knew it! You are seducing me so I can forfeit the Dance-Off. I’m onto you now, Missy.


(for more info on the Dance-Off, read this PAX2009 Juicy Goodness)


Me: *looking innocent” who? moi? *hides the horns holding up her halo* I would never do such a thing! *pinky to mouth*
CT: Yeeeeaaaahhhh. Uh-huh. I can see that red tail…
Me: That’s not a tail. That’s my whip.
CT: Ooo Honey. You know what I like.
Me: tee hee. Reach out and touch faith and by faith I mean that is my dom name for the night.

CT: *Points* I…yeah, no. So much to say there that will only end up having a love night with you.
It was sometime during that conversation that I decided to listen to Depeche Mode. More specifically, the album Violator. That is my most favourite Depeche Mode album. And then the song “Waiting For The Night” came on and suddenly I was hit with huge inspiration and images flying through my brain to create another one of these (for best effect watch in full screen mode. P.S. contains scenes of violence, nudity and sexual situation that may be objectional to some viewers):

It is not much but I am very proud of it. It is the first video of this sort that I created and I so loved doing it. It is the first thing I created where I did not repeatedly beat myself up over for little small mistakes that only I would notice. That I can myself watch over and over again without thinking “Oh dear why on earth did I ever think this was a good idea.” I have been wanting to make another one for a long time but have been lacking inpiration on all creative fronts.

Thank you @CaptainTapole and Depeche Mode for bringing on the rain. Here come nights of watching the same movie over and over again, writing down time indexes and editing. I feel restored!





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Sleep Sweet King, You Will Be Missed

June 25th, 2009

Today if a very sad day for me. Michael Jackson has passed away at the age of 50.

I loved Michael Jackson. I can remember when I was younger, my sister and I wanted my mom to marry Michael Jackson. I loved to listen to his music and watch him dance. I think watching him dance was one of the reasons I wanted to be a dancer myself. Watching him perform was like hearing the angels sing. It was perfect and flowing and effortless. He loved what he was doing and in return, I loved him.

He not only inspired me to dance, he inspired my dance teacher as a choreographer among many other choreographers around the world. To be able to work with Michael Jackson was a blessing and an honour. Many R&B, Hip/Hop and Pop artists today are inspired by this man as well. If you were to watch their videos you are bound to find some variation of these movements that have become so iconic. My youngest loved Michael Jackson as well. I have pictures of my youngest in one of my Michael Jackson dance costumes imitating his signature moves.

Unfortunately many people preyed on this wonderful human being. He was misunderstood and hunted by the world. He had the soul of a child in the body of a man and he was rich! That made him the perfect target. Before his death, I was always afraid that he would be remembered for the scandal instead of being remembered for the wonderful contributions he made to the world. Not only did he revolutionize both music and dance and enriched our lives through the arts, but he was a champion for children and children’s charities. He gave of himself freely and in return was treated like crap. The treatment of him by the media at large and many around the world who have this sense of entitlement is one of the many reasons I think the paparazzi should be shot and killed. We should be extremely thankful for all that he has freely given to us and instead “we” feel this stupid sense of he owes us. Dance monkey, dance and make me happy. Hopefully I live to see the day when “we” are thankful to these people who choose a job that enriches our lives instead of treating them as belongings and slaves to our bidding and wishes.
Tormented Angel

The body of a man

The eyes of a child
The voice of an angel
So gentle and mild

He lived a life
Misunderstood and berated
He enriched the world
And was loved and hated

He gave the gift of song
He opened up his heart
And in return
We shut him in the dark

He was selfless and kind
Generous and loving
Bearing his soul
And in return got nothing

He gave us dance
We gave him suspicion
He gave us music
We gave him speculation

He opened up his home
We gave him accusation
He wanted to heal the world
We gave him condemnation

Now time has come
For him to rest
What we give him now
Will be the test

Sleep sweet my loving King of Pop. May you find peace and understanding.





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Canadian Media Bailout

June 10th, 2009
For a couple of months now I have been seeing these commercials on Canada’s big three television stations (CTV, Global and CBC) saying they are experiencing financial difficulties and local TV is in trouble. As a general rule, I ignore commercials. Like really ignore them. My brain goes on screen saver as soon as there is a commercial break. I loathe commercials. An ex could never understand how I am able to do this. He would try to strike up a conversation regarding a commercial that had just finished airing and I would have no idea what he was talking about.

However working in the media field myself and the fact that it is very rare that I watch a non-Canadian station, these commercials grabbed my attention. I couldn’t understand why CBC would be in trouble as it is a crown corporation and owned by Canadian tax payers. Furthermore I couldn’t understand why the other two would be in jeopardy as they own a large majority of media (both TV and print) in Canada and they had just finished buying nearly if not all CHUM stations. Why on earth would you keep buying out small media if you are currently undergoing some financial crisis and claim that this has been brewing for years? Futhermore there are so many grants available to create Canadian television programs. Companies receive money from the Canadian government to do exactly that. Canadian media has always been subsidized by Canadian tax payers.

Part of the Big 3’s claim is that local programming is under threat should they not receive a bailout ($150 million) from tax payers. My first thought was, “What local programming?” I see very few Canadian made television shows on these channels and a lot of American shows where the broadcasters have to pay the American networks to air them. The only real differences (besides the odd Canadian show) between Canadian network television and American network television are: 1) No American commercials and 2) Hardly any censorship (two examples are Nip/Tuck is shown on network television in Canada without edit whereas it is shown on specialty channel in America and Blue Movies are available on network television). The only real local content that I have seen comes from the ShawTV channel. Needless to say these commercials left me boggled and when I would try to search for answers regarding this issue, I could not find any information explaining what exactly they would use this money for and what exactly is this crisis they are facing. Another thought I had was stop paying millions of dollars a year buying American shows which Canadians are free to watch on American network television and use that money to create more Canadian content on our Canadian channels.

So it was very pleasing to me to find the following e-mail waiting for me as I do my morning routine:

“CTV, CBC and Global TV are trying to convince Canadians that local TV is in trouble. What they’re really doing is trying to push through a TV tax on all Canadians for programming you get for free today.

They want this extra charge because they’ve misspent the hundreds of millions of dollars they’ve already received from taxpayers, cable and satellite companies. In total, cable and satellite companies pay $250 million a year in program funding to assist local broadcasters in producing Canadian television programs – as much additional funding as is provided by the Canadian government. Where does that money come from? It comes from the Canadian taxpayers.

The major broadcasters won’t even commit to using the new money to produce new local content. That’s why the CRTC has already turned them down twice.

None of us can afford to keep bailing out companies who don’t know how to control their spending. Help us hold the broadcasters accountable.

Visit SHAW.CA/NoTvTax to get the facts and make your voice heard.”


I strongly urge all Canadians to really understand the facts before making a decision. My personal opinion is this (and please bear in mind as I state this opinion my political views lean towards Democratic Socialist): Bailout money given to the Big 3 is a huge waste of Canadian taxpayers money!





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I Never Thought I Would See The Day

June 8th, 2009
Having to write this blog feels very very strange. Right now my brain is going “huh” for lack of a better expression. It is such a strange phenomena and it is all so surreal right now. I don’t even know where to begin right now because as the title says, I never thought I would see the day. Now I hope anyone who is reading this does not get the wrong idea. I have to do a little bit of history first before this makes any sense, if it will make any sense. Right now, it doesn’t make sense to me. This is just something I have been having to deal with recently and it has been causing some confusion.
Let me back up a bit. When I got into the entertainment industry it was because I have a passion. I never thought that my name would become known in any shape or form. I thought that I could do what I love and share what I love with people in a somewhat anonymous fashion. Maybe that was a tad bit naive of me. I thought I could share my love for music, blog about random thoughts and events in a quiet fashion and geek out with fellow geeks about topics of mutual interest and stay under the radar. After all there are hundred of people out there that do the same thing that I do and seem to be able to do that.
Now I also have many other hats that I wear. And for some people, it can be a bit confusing how I am able to manage and juggle all of these spheres. They are all separate aspects of my life yet still make up part of the whole. It is quite the understatement to say that I am a very complex person with many different layers, many different things that I am really passionate about. My many vast interests has certainly made it difficult to decide what random thing I should blog about since there are so many different things that get me excited during the course of a day. Some have a hard time rationalizing how or why I can believe in one thing and other things at the same time. And you know what, that is their right. The best that I can do is present myself as honestly as possible and allow people to take from it what they will. It is not my job to justify my beliefs beyond stating something as opinion and I respect other people’s beliefs and opinions as long as they are not causing harm.
Now let us jump forward a bit. I have a very rare name. I use to do this thing regularly where I would google my name just to see what would come up. And for years (even so I could be found on the net) nothing came up without having to dig through thousands of pages. And then last year, something interesting happened. I googled my name and found someone else with my name and found them on various networks. I found it interesting that they also used Jules when posting to forums or other venues. I never gave it a second thought beyond writing a short blog about it because really it was an interesting thing (at least to me) given how rare my name is. Never in a million years did I think it may be a source of confusion for people. I took it for granted that if people wanted to find me, it would be simple.
Well now (and believe me this is very surreal) it is an issue. I have had requests on Facebook and have seen that they have requested the other Julia Sherred as well not knowing which is which. I posted a comment on a blog today that I post to regularly and have always been the only Jules that I have been aware of, only to see that after I posted someone else had already posted to the blog using Jules. So I had to clarify that. So now on that blog I am posting as Jules (Julia) hoping that will be enough. All of a sudden a lot of people are searching my name. It is not only me performing the searches. I just find this whole thing so odd.
Now maybe this phenomena will be short lived. Maybe it will go on as I start to interview more and more people and geek out about whatever grabs our fancy. So if you are reading this and have been one of those people who is searching my name, there are links in the sidebar to other places you can find me on the web. Other than that, welcome to all the new visitors that have come across this blog. I hope you come back to it frequently as you never know what topic I will talk about from one day to the next.





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